How short are you?

tolerance

2011-11-30T06:32:00.000-08:00

for me, life is all about this one word on top. yes, T-O-L-E-R-A-N-C-E. also pronounced as "ren" in chinese.

my work is not going smoothly for the past few days. there IS some times where i really want to give up or quit this job. and then again if i quit, its pretty difficult to find a job now, there won't be any income flowing in, and my resume won't look good either. sure, i know ppl will be like "just quit la! go and find a better job" or "just don't work only, since you are not happy working there", etc etc.. but you know, just another 1 month plus, i will be working there for half a year! it will definitely look better on my resume right? rather than working for a few months. half a year sounds nicer don't you think so? hahaha!

anyway, if i really want to give up, i would have done that long ago. i have been tolerating for going 5 months so, what is 1 month plus to me? my mind is telling me to give up. but NO! i die also don't want to give up. i'm going to tolerate until january!!

忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍!!!!!!

Sinfonietta Alumni

2011-11-27T06:29:00.000-08:00

I think i should post this too.

We will be having our band concert on the 18 December 2011 @ TRCC, Republic Poly! We are playing songs like Pirates of the Caribbean, Nausicaa: Valley of the Wind, Amazing Grace, some pop songs like Abba Gold and many more!

Tickets selling at $10, free seating. Please contact any of us if u are interested! ;D

93.3

2011-11-21T03:05:00.000-08:00

have not been blogging since september. but i don really care haha. anyway i'm quite busy nowadays

Yup, i'm still working at that shitty small company, now its getting shittier because of more things to do. things that are NOT within my job scope. yeah what my friend said was right, this company is not organised, in terms of job scope. i guess the good thing about my company is that there is radio for us to listen, but always the same station. YES 93.3

actually i'm not a person who like chinese songs. previously 98% of my songs are all ang moh or korean songs. But now i've beginning to put a few chinese songs in my mp3 because there are some songs that are worth listening :)

u see some songs are nice one loh hahaha!

i will try my best to update my blog :)

so long

2011-09-03T21:53:00.000-07:00

wow. its been such a long time since i've updated. probably too busy, or lazy. hahaha

well first of all,i've finally changed my phone! and its my ideal phone too. this is very first smart phone i ever had in my entire life. shall take good care of it!

for work wise, what more can i say? FUCKED UP! finally i've learnt my lesson. never agree immediately to the first job that has just hired you because you will never know, there's better jobs out there. i've met good colleagues in this job. but not for my supervisor. fking biased because she's a PR plus 2 of my colleague are also PR. and worse,

1) most of the time we work OT (no pay)
2) we don't go for lunch on the dot
3) there is no increment after 3 months probation
4) SHE FREAKING LIE TO US! what i mean by that? she told us that we will get 3 month bonus by the end of the year. actually, there is no bonus at all. secondly, during the interview she said that i will be contacting with ship owner and ship manager (sounds good right? and its something related to what i'm learning). but in the end, my job scope is to send out enquiry to suppliers nothing else.
5) WHERE HAS OUR CPF MONEY GONE TO?! one of my colleague (a singaporean) checked her CPF account and released that my supervisor did not transfer our CPF money to our account!

i just had no idea how long i can tolerate all this shit. hahaha

and lastly. i am not going to the wedding. it's pretty disappointing that they still don't treat me as a family even thought we've been together for more than 2 years.
sometimes, being silent does not mean everything has been settled or forgiven. you will never know what happens next.
i know its rude for me not to go. but i have the right to choose whether to go or not to go. anyway, big thanks to all my friends and family who totally understand how i feel, see me cry, hear me complain etc..

i am prepared for the consequences.

my hair journey

2011-07-07T03:01:00.000-07:00

bored at home. so i went searching all my pics in the history and i found this:

MY LONG HAIR!!
my hair was pitch black at that time. then i start dying my hair!

first hair colour - marshmallow brown

then golden brown
then i decided to chop it off, and dye my fringe red

supposed to dye the whole hair red but i have no idea why it becomes brown LOL

and now for the current colour, finally a red hair!
looking back at all my long hair pics, i seriously cannot imagine myself keeping long hair. few years ago i had the phobia of visiting the salon for a haircut. but for now i don't mind cutting short. sometimes i even think that its short enough! haha
hmm short hair is good!

jeffrey michael

2011-07-04T07:22:00.000-07:00

I WANT HIS MUSIC!

few years back i bought his cd just because of Pachelbel's canon in D and i really didn't hear the rest of his musics. until when i find practically most of his musics nice and soothing, the cd was lost!

it was like damn sad la. now i've been trying to search for his music and download while i can. seems to be a bit difficult. unless i buy his cd again. hmm but i don't even know if singapore is selling this.

I REALLY WANT TO LISTEN TO ALL HIS PIECE OF MUSICS!!!

anyone got his cd? can lend to me?

quitted

2011-06-30T09:48:00.000-07:00

my days of working in evergreen stops today

so many stuff happened but i will update next time, probably in my private blog. but still, i sincerely want to thank these people during my stay

1) mike
other than jiang wen, he is the very first person that i told him i resign. he really helped me a lot, especially a few days before my confirmation. he comfort me, counseled me and gave me back my motivation to work like what i was used to be when i first stepped in to this company. even though it didn't turn out to be better, i really appreciate that

2) jiang wen
she is always there to listen to my complains and sufferings. what has happened during poly time was a very big misunderstanding. i understand it, and i'm forgiving it.

3) elaine and the docs dept
they are the only department who understand how i felt and see me suffering at the same time! and thanks to elaine. without her, i don think i will know so many stuff that is happening around me. thanks for all your trust!

4) jimmy
maybe i didn't get to talk to him that much, but i'm still happy to hear him say: "i really cannot imagine you leaving the company" he came to my desk today after work, giving me that unbearable face, shaking my hands wishing me all the best, saying that i'm always welcomed to come back and visit them. i felt like tearing at that moment

5) peter
more or less, about the same as what jimmy said to me. and he is really kind enough . he don't mind being my referral when my future company requires that. he planned to transfer me to other depts as he does not want me to leave. but i'm sorry. even if i got the offer i will still reject. nonetheless, thank you for the effort. most importantly, for giving me this opportunity to work in this big company

i deeply appreciate everything! thank you guys so so much. hope we can keep in contact

SPOON FEED

2011-06-28T07:15:00.000-07:00

I FUCKING HATE THIS WORD!

we love you

2011-06-07T11:57:00.000-07:00

everytime when you encounter a problem, there's always a solution to solve.

committing suicide, or in other words, jumping down from the building is not going to solve everything. maybe to you. but what about us? what are we going to do without you? have you ever come across that in your mind? each of us is important. YOU! are important to us as well. you can't just leave this just because of these few mistakes or do this just because of love and relationships.

if he don't love you. it's ok. you still have friends. you still have us.

can't turn back

2011-05-03T04:56:00.000-07:00

next time when there's an adult came telling you to "enjoy your school life while you can", you better believe and enjoy as much while you can!

work is not as relaxing as it seems, especially when are dealing a real life situation.

i almost cried today. everything seems so stressful. i want to turn back the time if i have the opportunity. yup this will be my very first time saying this

I MISS SCHOOL! i miss my class time table where we always ended school at 12 every wed to fri. i miss tom yum sliced fish noodle in foodcourt 2. i miss all the cheap foods
i miss may chua

i miss everything that requires to be a student

save save save!

2011-05-01T07:47:00.000-07:00

when i got my one full month pay (i only got half the pay because i started work on the 2nd half of the month), I WAS SHOCKED! maybe because i didn't expect my pay to be that less. my pay can be decent. but its because of the FUCKING CPF that deducted 20% of my pay. curse you MBD!!

there's so many things that i wanted to buy! but money is always the issue. hais, can't survive without money in singapore. but anyway,

1) camera

i'm thinking of investing a good camera. after borrowing krystal's camera i got the temptation to get one! and after i got my own, i can take nice pictures without borrowing other people's camera hahaha!

2) xperia arc

yes, everyone will be eyeing on the upcoming iphone 5. but i'm eyeing on this baby! my contract is going to expire a few more months and i really can't wait to change my phone. if i get this phone it will be my very first touch-screen, android phone. hais, my current phone looks so vintage now...

3) honda civic
THIS IS MY DREAM CAR! but its freaking ex. and looking at the pay that i got, it makes me even more sad. plus my driving license also. hais perhaps i need a few years to get this car. gotta save up like mad!!!!

updated post

2011-03-02T09:00:00.000-08:00

updated my personal blog:

http://huffypufffy.livejournal.com

confirmed that we will be going batam. haha! waste my effort to feel disappointed

batam!

2011-02-28T17:46:00.000-08:00

yes. i'm going batam with my beloved!

nv been there before, but i'm looking forward to it. and i'm SO going to whack A&W when i reach there! ice cream waffle! root beer float! no one can stop me!!

poly life is over!

2011-02-20T19:36:00.001-08:00

3 years of my poly days are finally over!! don't need to travel so far already hahaha!

since my sch days are over, its time to make my own decision. my mum has been urging me to find a job. yeah i got a job now. but it's not those kind of 9 to 5 office job. felt a bit irritated because i plan to find a proper job AFTER i got my diploma cert. and the other reason is because of romey. since he's going to P.O.P soon from his unit, he planned for a short trip to malaysia. from what my sister told me, if i start an office job now, i cannot take leave for the first 3 months. so this is why i plan to stick to my current job. even though the pay and the working time is little, but at least i got some money. and i'm not those kind who really love to spend money for no purpose! so i will stick to this. i will stop at the end of march then i will find a proper job. and off course, further studies. mum, i know you don't want me to stay at home do nothing and let my time fly just like that. but i have my purpose for that so please understand

had steamboat plus gathering session with my 老朋友s . it's been such a long time since i've seen them. i was very busy for the past few months. FYP, projects, studies and also work. it was always fun with them. a lot of talking sessions and game session, sharing our deepest secrets and lots more. since most of us are graduating soon, i still hope that we will can meet up often no matter how busy we are. CHEERS TO OUR 8 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP!

sigh

2011-02-07T06:49:00.000-08:00

i'm moodless. probably because of my period. and what happened a few days ago.

we're cool, we ok. but sometimes i will still think about it here and there. yeah i always think a lot.

exams coming soon as well. its double the stress!

seriously depressed

2011-01-15T06:38:00.001-08:00

yesterday, was one of the most saddest day of my life.

i kept crying, and i couldn't stop

i know this is THE fact. i just need to face it

i am disappointed with myself.

i'm sorry to disappoint you that i'm a cry baby

happy new year!

2011-01-02T03:07:00.000-08:00

happy new year everyone! hope 2011 will be a good year for everybody.

i'm a bit lazy to recall all my first times in 2010. i'll just write my resolutions instead.

1) be healthy! because i'm sick now

2) get a decent gpa for my exams

3) work or further studies?

4) hope i don't screw up for my FYP presentation

5) get top 3 in rookie slalom

6) burn off my fats

7) family relationship to be better

8) keep in contact with all my friends

9) save up my $$$$

10) last but not least,

to spend more time with you, and hope we can maintain our relationship like what we are now

wrong in all the right way

2010-12-21T21:03:00.000-08:00

this song totally brightened up my mood. i'm all much better already.

problem solved. i think. maybe i have to tolerate. i will try

beautiful you

2010-12-20T21:02:00.000-08:00

time out

2010-12-19T20:26:00.000-08:00

i think i should really give myself a break for now. things weren't the same as before. talked to my sis about it, and she asked me for a time out. i'm still deciding now. maybe i should right?
i seriously have no idea what to do. i want to see him every week when he book out, but i also don't want to cry every week.
i've been very sensitive and emotional for the past few weeks already. my tears and mucus are also flowing like free of charge. i'll just try not to think too much about it for now.

hmmm

2010-12-16T19:42:00.001-08:00

its time for me to get a new running shoe. my 5-year-old shoes are starting to get cui already. the colour fades away, the soles peels off already. a bit shitty now. but come to think about it, it should be spoiled by now since i've been keeping it for 5 years. good brands are more durable i think. this shoe looks nice yeah? =D
this is my current shoe but the stripes are not this kind of blue. its a bit lighter like aqua blue. for now the colour of my shoes is grey-ish brown instead of white. see those black parts? the left side of my shoe is peeling off already. so you can imagine how cui my shoes are. haha.
anyway if i want to buy a new shoes, i have to save up again. hais sian hahaha!

happy together

2010-12-12T10:15:00.000-08:00

i have a wonderful boyfriend.
when i smile, he always make sure that i will keep on smiling.
when i'm upset, he will keep on asking me what happened until i give him a reply.
when i cry, he hugs me. or sometimes, cry together with me.
when i'm worried, he will calm me down and try to find solutions to solve my problem.

we know things weren't the same as before now. he's in the army, i'm busy with my work, we are only able to see each other during the weekends. its unlike the previous time where we used to see each other almost everyday. but we know that we still love each other. for now, we always look forward to the day he book out from his camp. quality time spent is short. but, it's better than nothing.

고마워 힘들 때면 다같이 울고 언제나 함께하며 지켜줘서 ♥♥♥

me and my chio nails

2010-11-24T22:10:00.000-08:00

did my manicure yesterday. like FINALLY! because i've said this ever since year 1. and now, after 2 years, i finally did it! haha. i'm satisfied anyway =D

just found out that snfc slides changed to friday. no idea if i'm going or not. hais there's so many stuff to do. and exams are like 2 weeks away. i know i should focus my studies now, but fyp is equally important to me as well. i'll try to finish my part by the end of this week. omg so stressful!

really want to skate, but it seems like i don't have the time yet. what to do? jia you ba hahaha!

lee hyuk jae

2010-11-14T01:42:00.001-08:00

aka eunhyuk!! he is OH SO HOT!!!!!

kk SNFC's over. got 3rd for speed slalom. happy about that. but not for my classics. not only do i have to train hard, i also have to train myself not to be so nervous in every comp!! now i will focus more on projects and studies. i think this is the most imp stuff for me now. chiong!!!!

I MISS YOU DEAR!!!! =(

thank you!

2010-10-27T22:51:00.000-07:00

this month's birthday was a bit kind of unexpected because quite a lot of ppl gave me presents. i just want them to attend my bbq chalet only. didn't expect that they will give me presents too. some are what i really want, some are hand made. but all presents are greatly appreciated! big thank you to all of you!

and thanks to all ppl who wished me a happy birthday. be it on facebook or sms. XIE XIE NI MEN! =D

me want this!

2010-10-07T21:23:00.000-07:00

aw~ so mouth watering!

may definitely will like this too because got her favourite kopi! hahaha

macarons FTW~!

recall

2010-10-04T23:27:00.000-07:00

i saw someone whom i haven seen for about 2 years on sunday

seeing her reminds me of the good old times in sp skate club. i'm so happy to see her

i miss you man! skate more often yeah? even though u are busy with ur stuff! =DD

random decision

2010-09-23T07:40:00.000-07:00

i'm going to chop off my long hair soon. this decision came into my mind very randomly haha. i think is because there are alot of girls with short hair when i was in the bus. maybe i will cut shorter than the picture shown above, probably above the shoulder by a few centimeters. i'm not those brave ones that cuts their hair until like damn freaking short la. i don't want my young history to repeat itself again hahaha!

i also thought of highlighting my fringe. just like felicia's previous hairstyle. but i scared like copy her style leh. then scared ppl thought i ah lian. hahahaha! aiya that one consider first la lol

P/S: take care and get well soon dear. i'm still worried haha

wishlist?

2010-09-13T12:11:00.000-07:00

wah~ there are so many ppl having their own wishlist on their blog. maybe i should have one on my own? hahaha

*what i want is not in order!*

1) NUM party tank
yeah i rmb that i always wanted this tank top because the "strap" at the back looks cool. and i like it alot la hahhaa! i've been wanting this for a few years already. surprisingly the price didn't drop! still as ex as ever. but you know, if i got the money, why not? there's so many designs to choose but i will pick the korea one =]

2) Sony S series mp3 player
i lost my sony thumb drive look-alike mp3 player about a year ago. now i'm using romey's sister's mp3 (ipod mini). it's still in good condition but i felt that it's not mine so i want to have my own mp3 player. this mp3 is nice! either blue or black. also can put video too

3) a laptop
this is way impossible for me to buy. but i still hope to have one! as usual, money is always the problem. probably have to give me a few years to save enough money for one

kk i thought of these few from now. i really need to think! hahahaha

unforgettable experience

2010-09-12T00:53:00.000-07:00

just came back from romey's 21st birthday chalet

for the very first time in my life, i was drunk

i rmb last time i drank about 2-3 cups of vodka with red bull and i'm not drunk. i only feel dizzy that's all. this time i drank about 4 cups with different mixtures. maybe i got drunk because of that

i cried alot when i'm drunk. that's what i rmb. i think about 4 or 5 times. i have no idea why but tears kept flowing down. i talked about it. and surprisingly i felt much better. i think its because i let it all out and there's ppl who were there to comfort me. great thanks to auntie marie! she carried me up to the room, and when i told her that i felt like crying, she hugged me and say go ahead and just cry, let it all out. auntie rae (romey's mum) was there to comfort me too. plus edwina and romey's cousin's gf rebecca. now then i realized that she's having the same situation as me. sorry about ur family. yup middle child is always the most sia suay one

and i know that i kept spouting nonsense the whole night. my mind was clear, and i told myself to keep quiet but i dunno why my mouth just can't keep it shut. even when i'm taking a shower, i still talk to myself hahaha!

awaited holidays

2010-09-06T05:29:00.000-07:00

exams are over. just have to pray that i don't forward any modules.

don't think i'm going to do anything much during the holidays. but i know i'm going to train hard for skates. i want to improve!

to some ppl i know

2010-08-14T00:40:00.001-07:00

next time when you guys see me in the streets, don't say hi to me. because i won't

bet you won't see this message. you guys don't even know i changed my blog already *TSK TSK*

YOG

2010-08-11T21:29:00.000-07:00

the 3 weeks break are finally here. but that doesn't mean i can slack and rest and do whatever i want to. this 3 weeks break is for me to study! since my mid term exams didn't score that well, i have to buck up in order to maintain my gpa or maybe score higher.

i'm getting a bit stress now. study and work and skates? i have not been skating for weeks maybe i should put that aside first. studies more important now. just 3 more weeks then one week of exams and i'm free!

time always fly so fast. so ta han for 4 weeks should be fast enough ba, i think

me love you

2010-07-26T08:42:00.000-07:00

i was doing my project yesterday. just got this feeling that i did it wrongly and i re-do again! then i felt frustrated, for no reason. i think is because my day didn't went well.

-couple of days ago, I BROKE A NAIL!
-supposed to leave the house at 5. delay to 7 plus due to my project
-i haven clean my hamster's cage! and it stinks like shit
-again, i did my project wrongly! and i haven complete it yet
in the end i didn't meet romey at QW because really no time. by the time i reached there i think they close already. meet him at clementi instead. text-ed on the way and while waiting for him to come

romey: later i sit next to you when u doing your project k?
me: no need. you later play your ps3
romey: i play ps3 still can sit next to you ma
me: you later play ur ps3 ba. i want to do my project alone. i today not in a good mood
romey: you not in a good mood is a sign that i should comfort you more
me: thank you dear

haha i was touched when he said that. i was in the mrt and i cried. lol ok la not cry la. teared a little. lucky nobody see. romey also ta bao the famous 328 katong laksa for dinner! its nice but noodles is a bit soggy hahahaha!

thank you so much dear! love you!

nail fetish

2010-07-14T08:23:00.000-07:00

i really love things that is related to nails. like nail polish, manicure pedicure and even nail arts. totally obsessed with all of these. always felt so happy when friends around me says: "eh ur nail colour very nice leh" ah hahaha thank u ppl!

i got a lot of nail colours. my sis was shocked to see so many nail colours. practically all of them are from the face shop because they are cheap haha. nv get to try OPI yet. got the money then buy ba haha

and may went for manicure with her bf's mum. seeing her i also feel like doing la. but now really no money le. wait for the next pay i guess. in the meantime probably just paint my own nails?

i'm dying to pamper my nails!! hahaha!

sadded

2010-07-08T09:47:00.000-07:00

these are the results for my term exam

SHIP SALES AND PURCHASE : 67/100

TRANSPORT MODELLING : 64/100

PORT AGENCY : 56/100

MARKETING: 45/100

SUPPLY CHAIN MANAGEMENT : 81/100

BUNKERING PRACTICE: 52/100

hais, i fail my marketing. and i'm very diappointed with my result this term. the heng thing is that i pass my bunkering because i thought i'm going to fail. yup and my SCM got such high marks all thanks to Joe Too (my lecturer)

wah really have to buck up already. i want maintain my gpa!!

no mood for school!

2010-06-27T07:38:00.000-07:00

school is starting tml. wah totally don't have the mood and i'm not looking forward to it! and i'm also nervous of my results. omg scared!

right now i'm like looking at SP academic calendar for this semester. searching for the YOG break period. hahaha! august, u better come quickly!

good luck on my results tml, even thought i know i can't maintain my gpa

i'm back

2010-06-19T07:17:00.001-07:00

but i'm damn lazy to upload pictures. other day ba hahaha

tml is sun. so happy father's day to all fathers!

this holidays,

2010-06-02T20:39:00.001-07:00

I WILL BE GOING TO KL WITH ROMEY AND HIS MUM!! =D

but that's after exams definitely. haha. we will be going there free and easy. hais too bad we're not going there by plane because it's expensive! it's ok. can travel better than nothing hahaha!

i really wish there's cotton on in KL. and if there is, hopefully the price there is cheaper than SG then i can buy more! don't worry may! got nice stuff i will buy for u =)

for now exams comes first. so, good luck to me ba. anyway i'm still quite excited for this trip! cause this will be my very first time traveling with romey! huhu~

what everyone wasn't looking forward to

2010-05-31T04:47:00.000-07:00

the stress period is here again! i guess everyone feels the same way as i do. i'm stress now. because i still have to work during my exam week! come to think of it, i shouldn't say i can work on that day. i'm working on thur. friday is port agency. which is like the thickest notes and one of the most difficult module to understand, try to ask them if i can just stay at home and study

can i have this dance

2010-05-15T07:41:00.000-07:00

Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close, and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine
And let the music be your guide

Now won't you promise me (Won't you promise me)
That you'll never forget (That we'll keep dancing)
To keep dancing (To keep dancing)
Where ever we go next

It's like catching lightening
The chances of of finding, someone like you
It's one in a million
The chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together
We just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance? (Can I have this dance?)
Can I have this dance?

Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn, will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, don't be afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you through it all
And you can't keep us apart (Even in a thousand miles can't keep us apart)
Cuz my heart is wherever you are (Because my heart is wherever you are)

It's like catching lightening
The chances of of finding, someone like you
It's one in a million
The chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together
We just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance? (Can I have this dance?)
Can I have this dance?

No mountains to high enough
No oceans to wide
Cuz together or not, Our dance wont stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

It's like catching lightening
The chances of of finding, someone like you
It's one in a million
The chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together
We just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance? (Can I have this dance?)
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

i miss romey

2010-05-13T09:01:00.000-07:00

yixuan <3 jerome hor says:
*got bring extra plastic bag?

romey 제롬 <3 Lee Yi Xuan says:
*that one have
*for clothes

yixuan <3 jerome hor says:
*hmm
*then should be ok le

romey 제롬 <3 Lee Yi Xuan says:
*ah one more thing
*dun have u haha

yixuan <3 jerome hor says:
*haha
*can't go =(

romey 제롬 <3 Lee Yi Xuan says:
*ya lor sian

hais, romey is going to KL for demo tml. damn sian. not going to skate this week. decided to study and chiong all my projects if i can! LOL

but on a happy note, my ham ham is coming tml! excited excited! i'm calling it "sticky" hahaha xD

enjoy ur trip romey. going to miss u!

12 may

2010-05-12T23:46:00.000-07:00

had dinner with the freakz! totally had a great time with them, even though not all are present. talked till shopping closing soon haha. hope to have dinner again, with more lao peng yous!

SO SO MISS YOU GUYS. YOU GUYS ARE LOVED! ♥♥♥♥♥

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAY MAY! ♥

my idol

2010-05-05T06:24:00.000-07:00

just like every skaters, we will always look upon one particular person to be our role model. then u will feel more motivated to skate and improve yourself after watching their videos or watching them slalom.

actually i had a fewthe very first person that inspired me was clarence. that time i was still doing coaching. since i'm there every weekend, i always get the chance to see all the team members sliding and slaloming. ivan, the "Tony and Gay" hair stylist, pointed at clarence and called me to look at his moves. and wah! i'm like damn stunned, because his moves are damn zai and didn't drop a single cone. and he's doing 0.5! lol that time i don't even know any tricks la ok. i know i very noob

then there's WSC and that is where i get to know more atas people all around the world. up till now this slalomer is still my best idol ever. and she is none other than chen chen!

she's the world no 1 slalomer! and she's freaking young! i kept on watching her video over and over again. it's too nice and zai hahaha! watch repeatedly won't feel bored one lol. come lets watch her video! =D

this is the most recent one i guess. and it's nice. to me this is like the best out of all the competition that she joined. chen chen jia you! i will support u!!

wheeling accident

2010-05-02T18:46:00.000-07:00

skated at ecp on sat. and i trained on my wheeling. the cones got stuck into my frame and i fell! the impact was high, and it's painful! everything was going so well! =(

so now, the left side of my body was injured. there's a blue-black on my hip bone (damn painful while sleeping!!), muscle cramp on my flabby arms and some where under my armpit. aiya have to be careful le.

feeling much better now even thought it's still quite painful. but i think i'm able to train my wheeling on friday. let's hope i won't fall so badly again

upcoming new hobby

2010-04-27T21:44:00.000-07:00

since romey is keeping fighting fish, i decided to keep a pet too

and it's a hamster!! =DD

although my parents strictly object about me keeping it, but i don't give a shit. my hamster, my responsibility. i haven get the hamster yet but its coming soon. i'll do my best to take care of it, due to my busy schedule

other blog

2010-04-22T08:54:00.000-07:00

http://huffypufffy.livejournal.com

inspired by rachelle, i think i should also create one personal blog so that i can just scream my hearts out.

i'm keeping it private. so u can't read! except for a few friends that i'm inviting

this blog still goes on, if i have the time to update

dear jerome

2010-04-22T08:31:00.000-07:00

Time just passed by in a blink of an eye, and we are a year old! Ok erm, i just wanna say, thank you so much for stepping into my life. I know the beginning of our relationship was very happening and very “out of a sudden”, but i’m still glad that we are able to manage it well. We did argue, quarrel and have some dissatisfaction among each other sometimes, but everything’s ok within a day or less. Still, i’m sorry for every mistake that i have done to make you angry, disappointed, worried, and worst of all, to make you cry.

I’m really grateful for everything that you have done for me. Like trying to get some things for me to do while you’re playing dota, come to my house early in the morning to have breakfast together then send me off to work and wait for me to finish, spent money on me even though your bank balance is decreasing, trying to make me happy when i’m not in a good mood. And many more. In case you are wondering, i really appreciate everything that you have done!

I really hope our relationship can maintain just like that, or maybe even better. Nobody is perfect, but you are close to perfection. I love you dearest. This is the one thing that i can assure you.

happy anniversary!

good to go

2010-04-16T09:22:00.000-07:00

i've changed back to my original class

timetable is good

gems is good

then i think i'm ready to go to school =) BUT! there is this one thing that i feared. I SCARED I CANNOT WAKE UP! its like sleeping until so shiok during the holidays and now this period is over! think we have to wait until the semester ends haha

and.............
haha! damn fast la. and i'm very excited about it =D love u so much dear

a huge sigh of relief

2010-04-12T21:18:00.000-07:00

wah i really wanna let it out man. HENG AHHH~!
hahaha. why? i'll tell u why

probably a few days ago, kan chiong ppl like me was waiting for the timetable to be released. and when i'm browsing the news feed in fb, i saw li ern's wall - "life is miserable because my school timetable SUCKS!" saw that timetable so i immediately went to check as well. and this is my timetable
and when i was looking it, i thought "eh? like ok leh. why she say it sucks?" then i see all her comments. cherlynn commented "wednesday, 4hr break" but eh? where got 4 hours break. got a bit panic so i asked may on msn

me: eh eh i check with u ah
may: hahas okays
me: mon is 10-5.30 right?
may: is 10 - 5
me: tue 9-5.30
may: huh?
me: eh? no meh?
may: no eh. why so wierd one? not same leh
me: wait wait. our class is 21/22 right?
may: haiyo xuan hahas! is 23/24

and my mind was like. OH MY GOD!!!!! i kena transferred to the other class! and i worried and panic for a few days. went to sch yesterday to request whether can change back anot. LYF say he need to investigate then call me again. in the end he didn't call loh. checked the timetable again. and...there's a change in the timetable and there's a change in my class too! i'm back in 23/24 =D
whoo. ok no need to worry so much already. thank u romey for calming me down, elaine for the acc to see LYF, and may!

may: let mi noe alright. i will take the same gems as u (:
me: haha! thanks

so touched ok! =DD

the good and the bad

2010-04-03T07:54:00.000-07:00

i've some good news and bad news

THE GOOD NEWS IS:

1) i've bought the sims 2:double deluxe already!!
2) i bought my hair dye already. now the hair colour is much more obvious haha!
3) i've got my pay. and its WAY more than what i expected!
4) finally, like FINALLY! my sch fee is paid and i'm able to see my result. and i'm quite satisfied with it! =D

LAST YEAR

Semestral Examination Results
2008/2009 S2

COURSE

DIPLOMA IN MARITIME TRANSPORTATION MANAGEMENT

STAGE

MODULE CODE	MODULE	CREDIT UNITS	GRADE
MA502B	MARINE BUSINESS	2	B
MA0082	FREIGHT TRANSPORT & LOGISTICS	4	B
MA0080	SHIP KNOWLEDGE & SEAMANSHIP	3	C
MA0083	FINANCIAL ACCOUNTING IN SHIPPING	4	C
MA0087	NAVIGATIONAL SAFETY	3	C
MA0100	MARINE ENGINEERING KNOWLEDGE	3	C
MS7522	I.T. FOR SHIPPING BUSINESS	5	C+

Semester GPA:	2.295
Cumulative GPA:	2.357

ALLOWED TO CONTINUE IN THE COURSE
_____________________________________________________________

i don't wanna include my itp results because its like only one module and u don't need to study for that. i got 3.5 anyways

RECENT

Semestral Examination Results
2009/2010 S2

COURSE

DIPLOMA IN MARITIME TRANSPORTATION MANAGEMENT

STAGE

MODULE CODE	MODULE	CREDIT UNITS	GRADE
MS501A	CALENDARS AND ASTRONOMY	2	B
MA0097	ELECTRONIC COMMERCE AND LOGISTICS INFORMATION SYSTEM	5	A
MA0090	FINANCIAL MANAGEMENT IN SHIPPING	4	B
LC0618	CRITICAL REASONING SKILLS	2	C
MA0099	LAW OF MARITIME CARRIAGE OF GOODS AND INSURANCE	5	C
MS7223	STATISTICS FOR SHIPPING BUSINESS II	3	C+
MA0103	MARITIME PERSONNEL MANAGEMENT	3	C+

Semester GPA:	2.773
Cumulative GPA:	2.765

ALLOWED TO CONTINUE IN THE COURSE
_____________________________________________________________

to me, it's an improvement ba. even though it's not high haha. at least i pass my law. because i screwed up the final paper. INSURANCE! -.-

THE BAD NEWS IS:
1) rookie comp female slalom was cancelled because no ppl joining. and i haven claim my refund yet!
2) i cannot play the sims in my lappy. stupid fujitsu! cannot even read the cd. damn cui sia wtf!

hmm bad news nothing much la hor~ haha

i'm sorry for everything

mun-nee~!

2010-03-31T08:27:00.000-07:00

going to spend quite a lot this few days. have to save up

the sims double deluxe - $29.90
hair dye (gold brown) - $12.90
sun with moon for anniversary - $80-85

so sums up will be around 130 bucks. so now must budget liao. hais when it come to money stuff its always damn sian hahhaa!

comp's this coming sat. all the very best to those taking part for either rookie or selections. JIA YOU! =DD

11th with the prawns

2010-03-18T09:50:00.000-07:00

first of all, HAPPY 11TH MONTH ROMEY! I LOVE YOU! =D
yay! just one more month and we're going to be a year! SUN WITH MOON!!!!! xD

went prawning to celebrate our 11th month. hmm this is my very first time going prawning. overall it was fun! a very nice experience

romey caught his first prawn!

and i caught my very first prawn too! =D

sadly the weather wasn't very good at all. heavy downpour, and i wear freaking fbt tank. wind kept blowing. fucking cold. haha!
caught 15 prawns in the end. even thought its less, but is better than nothing! lol

romey cooked all of them, because i dare not handle those live prawns
2 biggest prawns that we caught. ok la i know from this pic u can't tell la haha

went amk hub after prawning to shop shop. he shop for his fish stuff while i shop for planners. and i finally managed to buy one from artbox!! ^^v its like, no need to keep on wasting time to search for it alreadyhahahahahahaha! cute right? like got the cheeky look. also looks like kero from Cardcaptor Sakura maybe because of the tail and wings
art box plastic bag. wah lao eh. so nice loh. hmm must keep this sia. haha
saw this parrot while we were searching for some fish shop. so photogenic ah, let me take a good photo of u hahahaha!

and that's it for the day i guess. lastly,
i love you, jerome hor beng hung!

sp skate comp

2010-03-17T09:24:00.000-07:00

got 3rd for women slalom! =D
congrats to all prize winners! hard work does pay off! =)

on the very actual day, i overslept! =/ lol supposed to be in sch at 8.30 and we woke up at abt 8.20 plus. but lucky we reached there before the comp start. hmm quite nervous but still managed to make it through. i would like to thank those ppl who supported me! greatly appreciated =)

had lunch at IMM cafe cartel after the comp. initially it was pepper lunch but there were too many of us plus not much seats. then went fish farm and veggie farm at lim chu kang. if only the weather was good, everything would be perfect. hais, rain jitao spoil everything sia ahaaha! but i still had a good time with my dearest, becca, felicia, ernest, rohi, chris, gabriel, matthew, jireh and ziyi

i know i have not met my aim, but soon i will be

random talks to encouragement

2010-03-08T21:27:00.000-08:00

out of a very sudden, mr er talked to me on fb. a bit shocked, but we still chatted.

it's nice to keep in contact with him again. it's always nice.

and i want to thank him for giving me the encouragement, and motivation!

thank u mr er!! u are still the same, always helping us and be there for us too. i will work hard and train hard. for everyone, and for you! =D

upcoming to-do-list

2010-03-08T08:06:00.000-08:00

events coming up

1) 13 march - sp skate comp
2) 23 march - release of our semester result
3) 10 april - rookie comp
4) 18 april - ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY WITH ROMEY! ♥♥♥

my to-do-list

1) buy organizer
2) buy new sandals? buy a nice one so that i can wear on whatever purposes haha
3) dye my hair again. i wanna dye gold brown!!
4) treat bao bei sun with moon!

sat comp le haven even plan finish routine yet. hahaha. think i'm going to plan a simple one ba. because i know my legs will tremble fucking madly on that day. just like last year's SNFC. just hope that i won't fall down again.

wah~ i need to train properly le. some of my tricks are at a different direction. hmm must start from square one again. gotta master my j-turn, back cross with right foot in front and back one foot using right leg

oh! and i love u dear! =D

ah lian's farewell

2010-03-03T20:31:00.000-08:00

met my lao peng yous for lee lian's farewell. she's going to china for a few months to study. forgot when she will be back. so take care man! all the best and bon voyage! =D

had lunch at 313 subway then headed cineleisure to catch a movie. stood there for quite long, thinking of what movie to watch. and in the end we watch 'hot summer days'
this movie is nice! should go watch.
went to work after the movie. thank them for choosing the movie that suit my time. so touched can? haha they are the best! =D
then go work, dismiss already rushed to romey's house. and he got sub paper. he's one lucky boy! =D

iluv beans earphones

2010-02-26T08:47:00.000-08:00

bought a new earphone recently. but i got the orange one hahaha! =D

last time i thought of buying other earphones or headphones. like.....

We are the Superlative Conspiracy (WESC) headphones. damn chio, damn creative, damn stylish. BUT! it's expensive, too many designs until u dunno what to choose, and it's not selling in s'pore. which means u have to order from US i think. then got add those shipment fee ah, blah blah...
u can see some more on this website.

sonic gear ear pump. hmm, i usually prefer earphones that has a deep bass audio. last time i went challenger, just anyhow anyhow pick one earphone then i chose this. and this brand of earphone gave me the audio i wanted. for ppl that have same preference as me, this is suitable for u. BUT! it's not really a long-lasting brand for me.

1) i bought the purple one and within a few months, the right side of the earphone no sound
2) i bought another one but design a bit different. and within a few months, it went missing, together with my mp3!
3) romey told me that he bought that brand of headphones last time. then spoil also. haha

hmm now i just hope that this earphone is long lasting can already hahaha!

i got really worried when he told me about this bad news
i really wish i can do something for him
if i am lucky this year, i would rather pass my luck to him
i know i can't do anything now, i just want him to be happier
i really really pray hard that there's sub paper for him

sat at shirley's house

2010-02-22T03:20:00.000-08:00

went to shirley's house to celebrate cny. her house was spectacular man! damn chio la. haha. wanted to get this kind of house when i grow up.

well, there's a "casino" at her place. didn't play anything because i don really gamble. i gambled before, but it's without money, or maybe max 20cents or something. haha. that i'm still ok, but when i see the amount that they bet is getting higher, i don even dare to place my bets haha!

so while they're busy gambling, i was spending my time watching tv, or playing with marcus! =D

this is marcus. gosh, how adorable can he be =DD

and i also love his room. i mean he and ryan's room. so clean and neat. not like mine haha

oh yeah, the food there was nice! keep spamming the sotongs only xD

belated v'day + 10th

2010-02-21T05:46:00.000-08:00

the dinner was great

the gift was great

everything was great

but what's the greatest is being with you!

happy v'day and 10 month baobei! 2 months more and we're going to be a year!! =D

sick at the wrong time

2010-02-17T19:38:00.000-08:00

had nose block, runny nose and flu today. for the very first time, i sneezed 7 time continuously. haha! hmm, kind of like a disaster to me. because i'm having statistics paper today. the paper was ok, except that i did quite alot of careless mistakes. ah i'm so lucky that i've bought 2 packs to tissue into the examination hall.
now staying back in sch doing CRS. having steamboat for dinner later! going to celebrate belated valentine and 10th together with romey later on. can't wait!!! =DD

goodbye forever

2010-02-10T04:34:00.001-08:00

deepest condolences to my aunt, the person who thought of my christian name.

it's really very sad for you to leave us, but we understand, that this is the only way that you can relieve your pain. you are always concern about our family's situation, please do not worry too much.

i seriously apologise for not seeing you the very last time

but please remember that, we still love you, and we miss you a lot.

Rest In Peace

i cried in IMM daiso just now. ok i just know this news hours ago. called my uncle ask about my aunt and i cried. thank this unknown lady for giving me a pack of tissue

an hour of boredom

2010-01-21T20:36:00.000-08:00

i really got nothing to post. and i don even know why i'm blogging now haha.

hmm. exams coming real soon, AGAIN. but it's a bit disorganized. some papers are before CNY, and some during CNY. but i'm still ok with it since i don really celebrate CNY haha.

i think romey's going to army real soon. just hope that it doesn't falls on our anniversary date. but if really suay suay tio, hmm then its ok loh. maybe celebrate before he goes in. time flies man, and my bf going botak!

but no matter what i will still wait for you. maybe we are not going to meet each other that often, but i still love you like i always do. not sure whether is it too late to say it now, but thank you for always being there for me, listen to all my nonsense and many more. love you love you LOVE YOU! <3

the last day of 2009

2009-12-31T03:49:00.000-08:00

wow. today is the last day of 2009! happy new year's eve ppl! =D

hmm. usually this time i'm always out with my sec sch friends to celebrate or count down. well we did that last year. it was damn packed obviously. took us abt an hour to finally squeeze through our way to the mrt station. hahaha!

since today is the last day of the year, it's time for me to review all my 'first time' of 2009.

so these are all my first times:
- i've dyed my hair
- went to a shipping company for attachment
- use the binding machine! and hey i'm proud of it ok? HAHA!
- took part in skates competition (SNFC)
- do jam slalom
- ate alcohol ice cream
- drank choya
- i lost my mp3 which has been with me for like, 3 years?
- i cried like shit in the airport (when romey wanna go korea that day)
- my house doesn't have internet for more than half a year
- performed at Singapore Conference Hall
- i don't enjoy this year's band concert (out of so many years we've performed)
- ate sakura
- ate korean cuisine
- i've joined MLM company. and please! don't do such fucking jobs. because they suck!
- bought the phone that i aimed for (myC903 off course) and i'm satisfied with it!
- i had a long-distance relationship. romey lives in jurong, i live in hougang haha
- skyped to overseas
- i'm getting more interested in korean musics
- bought my own skates!

there's still some others but i've forgotten. i'll update if i rmb, or not. haha

and off course i have resolutions for the new year!
- improve my slalom. yup i know i've been saying this for dunno how many ding dong times
- do well in my studies. maintain my gpa or higher gpa will be better
- earn sufficient money for myself so i can go to korea if i have that opportunity
- hope my mum will give me pocket money. if not, treat me a bit better
- stay healthy because of the H1N1
- and last but not least,
stay forever happy with romey! oh yeah. both of us got 4th for speed slalom in SNFC =DD anyway, i love you bao bei! ♥♥!! HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! have a good year ahead! =)

T.T

2009-12-20T01:18:00.000-08:00

romey's flying off in another 4 hours. think i'm going to cry like shit when i send him off, which i think i will because i've been crying every single day ever since last week. OOPS! haha

so what am i going to do? well, maybe find job, sit down and cry like an idiot, work (if i got a job), wait for sunday to come, etc etc...

gosh, i'm going to miss him. not going to hug him for 8 days!

but anyway, enjoy the korea trip. buy me something too!

take care of ur heel bao bei! love you more than you love me! haha

exams exams exams

2009-12-04T18:30:00.000-08:00

this is what i planned to do over the weekends. including yesterday (fri)

friday - personnel management & maritime law
saturday - financial management & e-commerce
sunday - statistics & personnel management (1st paper)

studied at bukit batok mac with romey. felt like 2007 when i was mugging with eli for our Os. but now is a bit different because o lvls doesn't really require you to copy down so many notes. hahaha. yesterday's mugging was not very successful.

1) planned to start studying at 1.30. in the end i was late, plus we went to west mall to buy bread and muffin. reached mac and we had our lunch. finally settled down and started studying at 2.30

2) i haven't study finish my maritime law!! =( i forgot the imp points FJF gave to us! damn shitty

3) wanted to study till 9 or 10. but we finished it at 8.30. romey says he wanted to eat pasta mania in the end we just bought sushi and tea eggs for dinner. can also tell that he don't wanna study anymore so i don't want him to wait for me for so long. haha

BUT! there are some good things as well.

chocolate muffin! my mum bought some muffins a few days ago. i reserved the chocolate one but my dad ate it away and left me with one stupid lan jiao flavour that i don't like.

a cup of hot chocolate with marshmellows! i was studying and i felt damn stressful because there's so many things that i need to study. and then romey bought me this. so nice, so sweet and so expensive! lol!! but ok la the cup quie big also ♥

and i managed to finish copying all the notes for personnel management!! it's the hot chocolate that gave me motivation to to study. thanks dear! love you! =D

for today, i planned to study till midnight then wake up 5am to study. i believe i can do it JIA YOU!!! =D

and all the best to everyone having exams on next week!

christmas

2009-12-02T05:13:00.000-08:00

exams is just next week. didn't study much because i have to submit projects and studying for practical exams. i totally have no idea why the deadline of the projects have to be like somewhere near the exam dates. i really don't like this man, we seriously have not enough time to study.

ok, so after exams there's christmas. guess i'm going to have a lonely christmas this year. because romey's going to korea! ultra sadness man. =( going to miss him like shit. hmm, hope my friends organize another christmas chalet like last year. haha

er, i don really have much christmas wishes. but there are some things that i really wished for:

1) stay healthy, best to have no blocked nose problem. it's damn fucking irritating to keep on sniffing and sneezing
2) good grades for my exams. i will study very hard even though there's not much time left
3) ppl to come and support me during the band concert.
4) improve my slalom. overcome my stage fright. prevent myself from falling down! hahahaha xD
5) grow taller
6) eat hook-on steamboat at ecp. the smell always make me feel like eating
7) enough money to support myself. FYI, my mum doesn't give me allowance
8) skate in sch. very long nv go there skate already. some more clubroom is renovating for 6 months which means we can't go there to chill out anymore. perhaps in the shag? LOL!
9) buy a few more clothes.

10) stay forever happy with romey! =DD
ah~ i really wish i can celebrate christmas with him!!! =( i have a feeling that i will flood the airport on the day when i send him off. haha. oh well, gotta wait for next year's christmas ba

stay P-O-S-I-T-I-V-E!

2009-11-26T07:21:00.000-08:00

ok quite a lot of things had happened to me. well actually only a few

everytime when i thought of that, i tend to cry like shit. haha. so i must try to stay happy. try to stay positive!!!

so how to stay positive? my way is to laugh and smile

this is to make me laugh

and this is to make me smile. this song is nice!!

Singapore National Freestyle Championship (SNFC)

2009-11-18T04:39:00.000-08:00

yup, it was held on last sat. this is my very first skate competition that i've join. off course la, i'm damn fucking nervous on that day. even the day before i was so nervous that i even cried. hahaha! hmm. the feeling is way much different than any competition. for example band comp aka SYF. maybe its because band is about working together as one. but for skates is you work alone, or maybe someone help you if you join jam slalom.

overall, i fell down twice. one during jam and the other on classics. worse, i fell on the same spot again. its painful, i'm nervous but i managed to finish it. hahaha! even though i got last for classics, but i'm still quite touched because a few ppl still took good care of me, concerned about my injuries, especially the MC, matthew and romey. SO GAN DONG OK? =D thank you ppl! my knee doesn't hurt as much now. well i'm not home empty-handed. at least i got 4th for speed slalom and there's a certificate for that too! lol. its a good experience to me. i will work hard for any comp coming up next.

ok now SNFC is over, maybe it's time for me to focus on some other important stuff, which is my exams and band. to be frank, i don really like most of the lecturers teaching us for this semester. after my attachment i kept telling myself to concentrate more on my studies. but unfortunately i can't la. wah i'm going to be dead for this exams i tell you. maybe i should just study and read those notes on my own.
then after exams is band. band concert is coming soon. i have not been practicing due to SNFC. gotta buck up on everything already. omg i feel stressed now haha! those interested in coming to my sch band concert call me ok, even though i'm not sure how the tickets are selling now. ah hahaha!

today, another horrible thing happened. i lost romey's thumb drive!! =( hmm, most of my module documents are inside. omg sia. hope the lab technician find my thumb drive. i'm waiting for ur news uncle! anyway, had lunch with romey at pepper lunch, went back home and watch "where got ghost". haha that's it.

you were always there when i need you
you always cared for me
you always make me happy
i'm so sorry for every mistakes that i've done
i'm getting busy nowadays, which means i will spend lesser time with you
but i want you to know that i'm always with you too
when you're not with me, i always think about you all the time
i want to let you know that you are very important to me

there's only one thing to do
three words for you

I LOVE YOU!!
and happy 7th month ♥♥

101% moodless

2009-11-10T08:56:00.000-08:00

TO MY HORROR, my windows xp is missing. don't know what i'm saying? then let me explain.

everytime when i switch off my laptop, the booting option will appear first. just like most SP students, they have windows vista and xp. most of my stuff are usually saved in windows xp because thats my account. and to me its more convenient la. i totally did not realise this until i ask my younger sis to help me switch on the laptop. i cried in front of the laptop some more. its like omg this can't be happening man. all my files, my documents, my musics, my pics, etc... ALL GONE! plus i'm having my period today, which makes me feel extra no mood.

but on the other hand, i do felt better now, all thanks to romey!
we were walking back home from bukit batok mrt. and we talked about our past relationship.

me: so what is the best moment you had with her?
romey: hmm. nothing loh. kiss la i think
me: haha omg! like that only? then me leh?
romey: EVERYTHING! like we go shopping, you accompany me, we go eat dinner, even holding your hand also happy

haha! just felt happy ^^

now come to think of it, i can't really think of any best/happy moments with my previous bf. lol but who cares anyway? =D

stressed

2009-11-06T07:52:00.000-08:00

these are the few reasons why i'm getting restless day after day.

1) family problems
- it's like as usual one loh. things are getting a bit worse now but it still seems normal to me.

2) financial problems
- also as usual. save up loh. what to do. LOL

3) SNFC in a week time
- i've made ALOT of last minute changes for my routine due to overtiming. orh my god man. pray everything goes well.

4) exams coming
- yes, its coming! ok i know i'm those ppl who usually prefer last minute studying. maybe should try to study a bit earlier

last but not least, I'M SICK. this is like the worse thing ever, especially my cough. it recovered, and it came back again. plus i'm having headaches like, everyday?

think i'm going to rest soon. bye and good night!

i don't like my family

2009-10-31T07:55:00.000-07:00

up to you guys if you think that i'm unfilial. i'm just saying out the truth.

as for what i've said in my previous blog, i do not have any parental love. up till now. and i bet it will still goes on in future. a lot of things had happened.

from the beginning of the year, my elder sis and clement (her ex-bf) can tell that my mum is treating me very differently compared to my 2 other sisters. she's trying very hard to bridge the gap between me and my mum. but unfortunately, that doesn't work. and i think that situation is getting worse.

my mum's factory just shifted to a new place, and she's owing my grandfather a huge sum of money. the whole family had some financial issues currently. i might be lucky at that time, because i'm on attachment and allowance are given monthly. so i have some savings for myself to spend and i don't really have to ask my mum for money. but my 6 months of attachment has ended. now i have to save everything. i'm paying my own bills and concessions every month and it can't go on forever. school has started, and my mum is not giving me any allowance. so i'm surviving on my own! and my saving are running low.

as what i've said just now, my sis is trying to bridge that gap. now everything starts to change. she eventually side my mum and began scolding me more often. and strangely she and my younger sister's relationship are getting better. i totally have no idea what kind of character she has. previously she was like cursing and swearing at my younger sister. and now she was like treating her so well. do people change that often?

i practically always get scoldings from either my parents or my sis. and i always feel like i'm invisible when i'm at home. you can see me cry in one room while the rest of my family was in the other room watching tv, chatting and laughing with each other. none of them even know that i cried some times.

and yes, i've been staying at romey's house most of the times in a week. i know i shouldn't be doing this because this isn't my real home or maybe causing troubles to his family. but i'm sorry. i don't want to feel invisible, i don't want to get any more scoldings everytime when i'm at home. i'm bearing this for so many years. some day i just can't stand it anymore. i like going to romey's house is not because they always treat me good food or what so ever. it's because of the care and concern that they showed me. as what his mother said: "family must always be in harmony." that's what i see in them too. but for my family, i think they are probably in harmony but without me

on my previous relationship with timothy, i kept thinking that i had a very good family. but after i'm with romey, i can see a huge difference between my family and his. it's really a far cry

and thank you so much romey, for always being there for me =)

yo!

2009-10-20T21:42:00.000-07:00

ok. even though it's a bit late now, but i still wanna thank all the ppl who wished me a happy birthday. be it advanced or belated. thank you again to those who send sms to me, send greetings to me on facebook and wished me in person. i trully appreciate it! =D and also to my sec sch friends for celebrating my birthday every year without fail! lao peng you is always the best!

and happy 6 months dear! i love you! =D

new look, new phone

2009-10-13T08:25:00.000-07:00

i've finally got a new phone! it's the one i've been eyeing on for quite some time.
plus i've dye my hair. ok this pic cannot really see my hair colour but nvm! just eye on the phone baby! haha. and i re-contract my phone line so i hope that when the bills come, the price will decrease since the student plan says "unlimited sms/mms" lol

for my hair dye, i used the bubble foam one. haha. romey's mum says its troublesome. but i have no idea la. this is my very first time dying my hair. well, quite satisfied with the colour. haha. but the mixture stinks like shit! seriously smells like the mixture used to rebond hair. LOL!

there's a lot of stuff happening during 18 oct
- me and romey's 6 months
- daran's birthday
- my birthday
- zac effron's birthday
- END OF HOLIDAY! haha

my birthday's coming, but i'm not looking forward to it. haha

don't cha!

2009-10-01T21:53:00.000-07:00

fucking funny! haha

don't cha wish your gf was hot like me.......... DON'T CHA~!

edited blog

2009-09-28T04:35:00.000-07:00

i have no idea why i can't copy and paste the code i downloaded from blogskins. hais, nvm at least i feel now my blog is much better because got tag board already!!! haha xD

hmm, my life is 60% good. all thanks to romey and his parents. i'll blog more about it next time. now not much time to do so.

romey wanna send his tribute to this famous top slalomer, liao jie. enjoy the video!

anyway, i'm in love with angels and demons the movie and OST. youtube and listen. damn nice. haha. anybody got the movie with proper subtitles? romey lent me the dvd but the subtitle is like shit! abomination they can spell as nomination? WTF! LOL. i'm planning to borrow their book as well. so those who have it lend me can? PLEASEEEE!

the illuminati!
those haven't see yet must go watch! =)

that's all for ITP

2009-09-18T08:54:00.000-07:00

finally. seriously FINALLY! 28 weeks of mundane work has come to an end. hahaha! well obviously there are always the good and the bad, happiness and disappointment

let's say about the good thing first. i've learnt alot from this attachment programme. everything i've learnt from this company will definitely benefit me along the way when i'm in the working environment. and i've learnt how to use the binding machine! ok i know its not convincing or a new stuff to show off. but at least i know how! how many of you know how to bind documents? lol!

and the bad thing? not much freedom i shall say. this company i've attached to, is WAY DAMN STRICT! like for example, the system administrator will track down every single webpage that u visited. and wait, this is not the actual part. you can go everywhere and look at other colleagues desk or computer or laptop, they are using internet as well and surprisingly, nothing happened to them. the page that they visited might be tracked down, but there's no actions taken. oh well, maybe i'm just an intern. so i can't really use the internet unless it's necessary

i'm happy because i don't have to see that FAT ASS FACE ever again! ok this fat ass, is one of the accountant in the company. I FUCKING HATE HER TO THE MAX! because she always want me to do the dirty job. my desk is on the second storey. her desk and my supervisor's desk was on the third storey. its really convenient for her to just go over to my supervisor's desk and ask her for all the information that she needs. but! her fucking problem is that she ALWAYS call me to ask my supervisor for the information she wants. argh! i really feel that she treating me like a fucking slave! and please take note, she's NOT my supervisor and i joined this company earlier than her. and she's treating me like that? that's fucking SHIT! not only this point that i hate about her. another thing, which one of my colleague totally agree on this, is that she is rude. i've told my supervisor about this. its a good thing that i've voiced it out. because what she did was a very wrong manner. so yup, if u are reading it, please attend some talk and for goodness sake, PLEASE STOP WEARING LEGGINGS. oh and did i mention that she is 3-4 times heavier than me?

and disappointed because a bit can't bear to leave this company, especially my supervisor. i did a lot of mistakes, i have poor memory. but she always use soft approach to tell or remind me. and she didn't even scold me at all. maybe just raising her voice, but not much. thank you pauline! for everything that you have taugh me! =)
finally i wanna thank these few colleague. without them, my 6 months of attachment would be very bored:
- julie. always went out with her for lunch. and thanks for some health tips
- angie, always talking about phones! haha. its good to have ppl with the same taste as me!
- zhao nan! my dear! lol. all the best for your itp. hope to see u soon.
- janelle, always talking about fyp and her past attachment experience
- ben, always asking me "eh! when u going to Zouk?"
- auntie, always cared for me! =)

and also, many things had happened too. not within the company off course. going to tell more next time. tml's the battle at velocity. good luck people!

changed my blog again

2009-09-09T22:06:00.000-07:00

lol! i've decided to switch back to blogger again. don really have much time to change my blog template now. maybe after attachment. then will add those necessary stuff like tagboard. hahaha!

anyway, i believe most of my poly classmates are doing what i'm doing. yes, counting down to the end of itp! =D can't wait for that moment to come. but definitely i will miss the company. as for now, i will just think of what i'm going to do after attachment. ah, so many stuff! haha. will update more next time. ciaos!

number of days to the end of itp: 6 working days