stay P-O-S-I-T-I-V-E!

ok quite a lot of things had happened to me. well actually only a few

everytime when i thought of that, i tend to cry like shit. haha. so i must try to stay happy. try to stay positive!!!

so how to stay positive? my way is to laugh and smile




this is to make me laugh



and this is to make me smile. this song is nice!!

Singapore National Freestyle Championship (SNFC)

yup, it was held on last sat. this is my very first skate competition that i've join. off course la, i'm damn fucking nervous on that day. even the day before i was so nervous that i even cried. hahaha! hmm. the feeling is way much different than any competition. for example band comp aka SYF. maybe its because band is about working together as one. but for skates is you work alone, or maybe someone help you if you join jam slalom.

overall, i fell down twice. one during jam and the other on classics. worse, i fell on the same spot again. its painful, i'm nervous but i managed to finish it. hahaha! even though i got last for classics, but i'm still quite touched because a few ppl still took good care of me, concerned about my injuries, especially the MC, matthew and romey. SO GAN DONG OK? =D thank you ppl! my knee doesn't hurt as much now. well i'm not home empty-handed. at least i got 4th for speed slalom and there's a certificate for that too! lol. its a good experience to me. i will work hard for any comp coming up next.

ok now SNFC is over, maybe it's time for me to focus on some other important stuff, which is my exams and band. to be frank, i don really like most of the lecturers teaching us for this semester. after my attachment i kept telling myself to concentrate more on my studies. but unfortunately i can't la. wah i'm going to be dead for this exams i tell you. maybe i should just study and read those notes on my own.
then after exams is band. band concert is coming soon. i have not been practicing due to SNFC. gotta buck up on everything already. omg i feel stressed now haha! those interested in coming to my sch band concert call me ok, even though i'm not sure how the tickets are selling now. ah hahaha!

today, another horrible thing happened. i lost romey's thumb drive!! =( hmm, most of my module documents are inside. omg sia. hope the lab technician find my thumb drive. i'm waiting for ur news uncle! anyway, had lunch with romey at pepper lunch, went back home and watch "where got ghost". haha that's it.

you were always there when i need you
you always cared for me
you always make me happy
i'm so sorry for every mistakes that i've done
i'm getting busy nowadays, which means i will spend lesser time with you
but i want you to know that i'm always with you too
when you're not with me, i always think about you all the time
i want to let you know that you are very important to me

there's only one thing to do
three words for you


I LOVE YOU!!
and happy 7th month ♥♥

101% moodless

TO MY HORROR, my windows xp is missing. don't know what i'm saying? then let me explain.

everytime when i switch off my laptop, the booting option will appear first. just like most SP students, they have windows vista and xp. most of my stuff are usually saved in windows xp because thats my account. and to me its more convenient la. i totally did not realise this until i ask my younger sis to help me switch on the laptop. i cried in front of the laptop some more. its like omg this can't be happening man. all my files, my documents, my musics, my pics, etc... ALL GONE! plus i'm having my period today, which makes me feel extra no mood.

























but on the other hand, i do felt better now, all thanks to romey!
we were walking back home from bukit batok mrt. and we talked about our past relationship.

me: so what is the best moment you had with her?
romey: hmm. nothing loh. kiss la i think
me: haha omg! like that only? then me leh?
romey: EVERYTHING! like we go shopping, you accompany me, we go eat dinner, even holding your hand also happy

haha! just felt happy ^^

now come to think of it, i can't really think of any best/happy moments with my previous bf. lol but who cares anyway? =D

stressed

these are the few reasons why i'm getting restless day after day.

1) family problems
- it's like as usual one loh. things are getting a bit worse now but it still seems normal to me.

2) financial problems
- also as usual. save up loh. what to do. LOL

3) SNFC in a week time
- i've made ALOT of last minute changes for my routine due to overtiming. orh my god man. pray everything goes well.

4) exams coming
- yes, its coming! ok i know i'm those ppl who usually prefer last minute studying. maybe should try to study a bit earlier

last but not least, I'M SICK. this is like the worse thing ever, especially my cough. it recovered, and it came back again. plus i'm having headaches like, everyday?

think i'm going to rest soon. bye and good night!

i don't like my family

up to you guys if you think that i'm unfilial. i'm just saying out the truth.

as for what i've said in my previous blog, i do not have any parental love. up till now. and i bet it will still goes on in future. a lot of things had happened.

from the beginning of the year, my elder sis and clement (her ex-bf) can tell that my mum is treating me very differently compared to my 2 other sisters. she's trying very hard to bridge the gap between me and my mum. but unfortunately, that doesn't work. and i think that situation is getting worse.

my mum's factory just shifted to a new place, and she's owing my grandfather a huge sum of money. the whole family had some financial issues currently. i might be lucky at that time, because i'm on attachment and allowance are given monthly. so i have some savings for myself to spend and i don't really have to ask my mum for money. but my 6 months of attachment has ended. now i have to save everything. i'm paying my own bills and concessions every month and it can't go on forever. school has started, and my mum is not giving me any allowance. so i'm surviving on my own! and my saving are running low.

as what i've said just now, my sis is trying to bridge that gap. now everything starts to change. she eventually side my mum and began scolding me more often. and strangely she and my younger sister's relationship are getting better. i totally have no idea what kind of character she has. previously she was like cursing and swearing at my younger sister. and now she was like treating her so well. do people change that often?

i practically always get scoldings from either my parents or my sis. and i always feel like i'm invisible when i'm at home. you can see me cry in one room while the rest of my family was in the other room watching tv, chatting and laughing with each other. none of them even know that i cried some times.

and yes, i've been staying at romey's house most of the times in a week. i know i shouldn't be doing this because this isn't my real home or maybe causing troubles to his family. but i'm sorry. i don't want to feel invisible, i don't want to get any more scoldings everytime when i'm at home. i'm bearing this for so many years. some day i just can't stand it anymore. i like going to romey's house is not because they always treat me good food or what so ever. it's because of the care and concern that they showed me. as what his mother said: "family must always be in harmony." that's what i see in them too. but for my family, i think they are probably in harmony but without me

on my previous relationship with timothy, i kept thinking that i had a very good family. but after i'm with romey, i can see a huge difference between my family and his. it's really a far cry






and thank you so much romey, for always being there for me =)

yo!

ok. even though it's a bit late now, but i still wanna thank all the ppl who wished me a happy birthday. be it advanced or belated. thank you again to those who send sms to me, send greetings to me on facebook and wished me in person. i trully appreciate it! =D and also to my sec sch friends for celebrating my birthday every year without fail! lao peng you is always the best!














and happy 6 months dear! i love you! =D

new look, new phone

i've finally got a new phone! it's the one i've been eyeing on for quite some time.
plus i've dye my hair. ok this pic cannot really see my hair colour but nvm! just eye on the phone baby! haha. and i re-contract my phone line so i hope that when the bills come, the price will decrease since the student plan says "unlimited sms/mms" lol

for my hair dye, i used the bubble foam one. haha. romey's mum says its troublesome. but i have no idea la. this is my very first time dying my hair. well, quite satisfied with the colour. haha. but the mixture stinks like shit! seriously smells like the mixture used to rebond hair. LOL!



there's a lot of stuff happening during 18 oct
- me and romey's 6 months
- daran's birthday
- my birthday
- zac effron's birthday
- END OF HOLIDAY! haha

my birthday's coming, but i'm not looking forward to it. haha